Where The Hell Have I Been Lately?

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by Melody Fletcher on June 4, 2015

 

Right. It’s time for another one of my soul-bearing, vulnerable, pull back the curtain on my own process blog posts. You may have noticed that I didn’t publish a blog post last week. There’s a reason for that, and it wasn’t that I got too busy (yes, I’m busy, but that wasn’t it). I did write a post, or most of one anyway. But I just couldn’t finish it. It wasn’t flowing. I simply wasn’t inspired to write. Was it a bad topic? Well, no. I’d seen the same issue come up again and again in my coaching calls for two weeks straight. Whenever that happens, it’s always a clear sign to me that I should explore the topic on the blog.

The issue I was going to write about was the importance of play, and how we shouldn’t forget to do it. We tend to get so caught up in our lives and even in our process that we sometimes (often!) forget to have fun along the way. Life is supposed to be filled with awesomeness. This idea is so important, I actually have a post it note on my computer screen reminding me to play.

There was only one problem

As I was writing this blog post about playing, I suddenly realize that this didn’t feel like play at all. I love writing, don’t get me wrong, but something was off, and had been for a little while. So, instead of publishing a half-assed blog post that I didn’t quite feel right about (in other words, ignoring the problem), I decided to skip a week and just sit with the emotions. What came up surprised me (as it usually does when we begin to see that which we haven’t been willing/able to see before). I felt kind of resentful, and even a bit bored (again?!?!). But mostly, I just felt frustrated. Something wasn’t working for me, something I wasn’t seeing. I clearly had resistance which was blocking out the solution (and even the realization of the problem).

I wasn’t able to dedicate time to this endeavor every day, but when I did, I felt like a race horse chomping at the bit, locked in a box just before the big race. I felt the energy building behind a self-imposed dam of some kind.

To be fair, I quite like it when I get frustrated, because I know that when I do, I’m about to have a break-through of some kind. Knowing this also helps to take the edge off. I might be frustrated now, but I know I won’t be for much longer. That helps tremendously.

I spent most of one day crying, feeling like a whiney little kid who just won’t let go of the notion that she has to go to Disneyland NOW!!! I felt sorry for myself, got angry (not at myself), took a nap, worked on my tan, read a bit, and wrote in my journal (mostly about how dam frustrated I was). It felt old and big and nasty, but also small and wily at the same time. Every time I got close, it would slip just out of reach. I’m sure many of you know the feeling.

And then it popped

I had to allow myself to feel these emotions and look at the thoughts that came with them, no matter how illogical, unfair or petty they might’ve been. Often, when we dig up resistance, particularly old resistance, what comes out of our mouths is downright ridiculous. That’s ok. That ridiculousness will lead us to the “truth”, or rather, the false perspective we adopted as our truth at some point.

I felt the resentment, sat with it, and let it bring up more information. I worked my way through the layers of memories that surfaced – memories of not feeling supported in different ways. This didn’t pop the issue for me, though. There was more. I dug through those layers to see what was underneath. I talked to friends and family. I vented. I had an energy healing. I backed off so I could feel better (frequently). And I did feel better, but there was always this irritation present, this drain on my energy keeping me from being my total Happy Shiny Puppy self. Finally, I had my epiphany.

When I’m trying to find a better feeling perspective, I often look at the extreme versions of a situation and the options that present themselves and how they feel. So, if you have a crappy job, I might ask you to consider, really consider, the idea of just quitting. Now, you might say “I can’t quit! I’d starve!”, but if you take the time to feel your way through the idea of quitting, you’ll get more information than you had before. You don’t have to DO it, just consider it. I do this often with my clients, usually blowing the extremes up to humorous proportions.

I my case, since I was struggling to write a simple blog post, I asked myself “What if I just dropped the blog altogether?” Now, before you panic, don’t worry, I’m not doing that. And I always knew I wasn’t going to do that. I don’t want to drop the blog. But I had to consider this idea, even briefly, to shake something loose. I needed more information, and looking at extreme perspectives can give us that. What I felt surprised me. Along with a big “Hell no! I don’t want to let the blog go!” was relief. Coupled with the resentment I’d already uncovered (resentment always means that we’re doing something we don’t really want to be doing), and it suddenly became clear that something about the blog needed to change. Again.

As long time readers will know, this blog has gone through several iterations over the years, mirroring my own changes. I went from three blog posts down to two and eventually, one. Each one of these decisions was incredibly difficult for me. I didn’t want to let you guys down. I was afraid business would dry up. I didn’t want to decrease the value I was providing. You name it and it came up over the years. And here I was again, resisting some change I wasn’t even aware I wanted to make. Go figure.

Ch-ch-ch-changes!

The change I realized I’d been wanting to make for some time, was to incorporate a lot more video into this site. Instead of writing blog posts, I wanted to create vlogs (video blogs). I started this process a few years ago, but got side tracked. I didn’t truly realize just how and why was until last week. I thought it was because I simply got too busy, but that was actually not quite true. Yes, I did get super busy, but then I remembered something: I originally started doing videos to cover the blog during one of my regular spa holidays. Instead of pre-writing a bunch of content, I knocked out six quick videos, each answering a different reader question, in a single day. The process of creating a video was faster than creating a blog post. And, it presented a new challenge, something new to learn, and a different way of engaging with my audience. I was ecstatic.

Then, came the feedback. My audience wasn’t happy. I was making changes. They were used to reading my blog posts and now they had to watch and listen to me? Where were the transcriptions? Sure, there were a lot of positive comments, and I certainly don’t want to discount those in any way. But the problem was, that the negative ones got in my head a bit. So, of course, I received more. “Helpful” comments letting me know that my background was distracting, that my lighting sucked, that my editing could be better, that I talked too fast abounded. And, since I had a lot to learn about video production, I listened. At first, it was fun. I experimented with different backgrounds, which wasn’t easy considering I don’t have one straight wall to shoot against. I finally settled on using my fireplace as a background, but people soon told me it looked odd. I used cheap yellow lights, which were hot as hell. As summer approached, they became intolerable. But not using lighting wasn’t ok – according to the screaming masses (or a few individuals who just yelled really loudly).

I decided to solve the problem by upgrading my professional equipment – a black background and a professional lighting. I enrolled in a couple of video production courses, learned about lighting placement, backlighting, the usage of backgrounds (and how to fold them up again. Seriously, I had to watch a Youtube video just for that). I experimented with an auto prompter, reading off a script (basically writing a blog post and then reading it on camera) so my performance would be more polished. I transcribed each video, worked on my editing and did my best to appease the video Gods. And somewhere along the line, it became not fun anymore. I suddenly took me three times as long to shoot one video than to write a blog post. Hell, it takes me nearly that long just to set up all the lighting and camera equipment, not to mention slapping on a bunch of makeup and all that jazz. So, I stopped doing video, not because I was no longer inspired to shoot some, but because I’d worked way too hard at it.

The earliest videos I did, with a shitty background, yellow lighting, a cheap microphone and no script, seem to benefit just as many people as the more polished ones do. The difference is that those early videos took me almost no time to shoot. I realized how fun it would be to just sometimes turn on my webcam and capture a few, quick words whenever I feel like it, rather than always making such a production out of it. I realized that the idea of going back to video, of being able to talk to you, engage with you using more senses really appealed to me. Ideas began to flood in. Inspiration hit. I’d finally popped it.

Why did it take me so long?

But, if this (the idea of changing the blog) is something I’ve gone through before, then why did it take me so damn long to realize what had to be done? Well, like many of you, I’m stubborn about the things I care deeply about. I care about this blog and I care about my audience. I’d begun catering to others more than I was catering to my own needs, and along the way, my needs got a little bit lost. I wasn’t prioritizing my own fun above all else.

For those of you who’ve been with me for a while (bless you!), you may be asking “But, didn’t you go through all of this before??” Well, yes, I did. This is just a new layer of the same issue. I suspect I’ll hit it again the next time I level up. Because this really wasn’t about the blog or my audience. It was a mere representation of a deeper issue – which is that of me owning my power completely (or more and more completely). Honoring how we feel is all fine and good until the stakes get high. It’s a lot harder to do when things get risky. For me, changing my blogging format represented such a risk. Shifting this aspect, popping this particular piece of resistance, opened up a tremendous amount of energy for me (which is why I was feeling so much pressure). My belief in the process and my willingness to honor my heart no matter how high the stakes are, are now stronger than ever. New insights and epiphanies are flooding in, along with creative ideas. It’s like I just unlocked a new level on this video game.

I’ve been playing with this new energy for a few days, and it’s been phenomenal (although I did nearly cause a friend to pass out when I let it out just a little too much). The matrix has become more obvious to me, my beliefs are stronger than ever, my energy more stable than I’ve ever felt it. So yeah, I’d say that going through that frustration was totally worth it.

What’s next?

Well, basically, we’re going to be incorporating a lot more video into the blog. Does that mean I’ll never write again? Of course not. I want the option to do whatever I want whenever I want to. So, if I feel like writing, I’ll write. If I feel like shooting video, I’ll do that. If I feel like taking a week off, I’ll do that, too. But I can tell you that right now, I’m itching to shoot.

Having said that, I’d like to clear up a few things:

I won’t automatically be transcribing all the videos. In a perfect world, I would offer all my content in multiple formats, but right now, this slows me down to no end. But I am looking into having this done, although that means that the transcription would most likely be published after the video comes out until we get into some kind of rhythm (bear with me).

I’m no longer going to care that much about production quality. If I want to haul out and set up all the equipment, I will. But if I’d rather just use my webcam or iPhone, I’ll do that, too. Some videos will be long, others short. Some will deal with general LOA questions, as the blog has traditionally done, some will go much further down the rabbit hole (which I’ve started to do much more frequently this year), and some will allow me to offer my perspective on current issues in the news today (this is new. I’ve rarely done that on the blog, wanting the content to be ever-green. But I feel the inspiration for this coming on). Oh, and I’ve had a couple of ideas for funny spoof videos, so I’ll be experimenting with that.

Some of the videos will be brilliant. Some might be kind of crap. I don’t care. I’m also well aware that I’m making this decision just as it’s getting properly hot here in Spain, making it much more difficult to shoot video without melting. I don’t care about that, either. Having fun and being inspired is more important than perfection. I’m figuring it out one day at a time, just like the rest of you. But I know that as long as I follow my heart – my inspiration – I’ll get where I want to go.

I so look forward to “speaking” to you again (staring next week!) and can’t wait to hear what you think (not because it will change what I’ll do, but just because I love hearing from you guys. I really do.)

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{ 62 comments }

Amy June 4, 2015 at 19:11

Yay! I am excited to see more videos from you!! xxx

Kathy @ SMART Living 365.com June 4, 2015 at 19:20

I so agree that the who point of LOA is to do what makes you feel happy and fulfilled so of course you should “make it up” in a way that works for you! But that’s a message that runs contrary to our culture and our needs to be liked and accepted so it doesn’t just take one or even two lessons to push through it…I think it takes a lifetime. And I’d also like to add, you or I will never get it done or perfect anyway right? I’m sure that whatever you choose will be absolutely the right thing for you to be doing at this time….and when it’s time for something new, you will be guided to that as well. ~Kathy
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millde June 4, 2015 at 19:33

Fabulous Melody, great to hear the new wave of inspiration flooding in!
Just a quick thought, maybe you can offer for some of the readers of the blogpost to transcribe videos – if the feel like it? I am sure it might come into an alignment for someone?
Big Hugs,
M

Kajsa Pålsson June 5, 2015 at 19:57

Hi Melody! Thanks again for our latest chat :) I’ve also been riding the tantrum-breakthrough rollercoaster recently… Good to hear I’m not the only one! Anyway – I’ve got a transcription kit and extensive experience, and I think it’d be quite fun to transcribe a few clips if you want. Let me know – hugs x
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Kajsa Pålsson June 5, 2015 at 20:06

PS. Voluntary work, of course! I’d be honoured to contribute to this fine community :)
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Sonja June 4, 2015 at 19:39

I was just recently thinking that it would be sweet if you’d put more videos out there! I don’t really care about the quality, I just find it a little easier to both listen and watch and perceive the information that way. Also, it’s nice to watch yo pretty face ;)

Summer June 5, 2015 at 16:58

I second that! Who cares about quality? As long as the message gets across and yes, I like seeing Melody too. I LOVE her new Facebook picture. She looks so pretty, and happy…..and shiny! I smile every time I see it. :)
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anonymous June 4, 2015 at 19:46

I knew it!! I knew something was off with the video thing. I was wondering where they all went.
I honestly had no idea that you were having these video problems. Because I’m blind. I thought the audio was just fine, hehehe. And as for talking fast? My screenreading tech does that all the time so I was fine with that. Although breathing isn’t necessarily a bad idea, hehehehe.
As for transcribing, if I feel inspired to do so, I may write abrief summary of what you say in the video in the comments, if that is all right.. Maybe that will help some people, especially if some people trying to watch are deaf. That’s got to be difficult. I feel grateful I am blind and not deaf.
I have been dealing with the same “play” idea. Still can’t get it right. I keep making the same mistake somehow. Getting too caught up in questions and releasing and feeling my way through things. Feeling my way through the problem has began to feel like work. But yet, I sometimes just do it without meaning to. So I need to back off, and really really really back off. I need to just do my stuff and let the rest come when it is ready. Funny you were having an issue with play. Because I truly have been having issues.
I have successfully broken several attempts at doing this LOA stuff that felt yucky today. And I know I need to continue doing that. Hopefully, through time, my attempts will not feel like they are getting in the way of my play.

Kimja June 4, 2015 at 19:49

It’s just more fun to mix things up, right? I have enjoyed the videos where it just seems like you are having a conversation with us, whatever background, and I love written blog posts – so I guess I win either way! Some spontaneous cellphone videos would be a hoot, especially if you just did it when you had a sudden shiny inspiration.

Patricia June 4, 2015 at 20:52

Yes! Like while laying in bed (above the covers! minds outta the gutter folks)… or while sitting on a park bench… or walking to the grocery store. Oh! Oh! You could interview people on the street!! Okay, I’ll stop now.

FYI – preordered!

xoxo ;-)
P.S. Under the covers would be fine, actually! Make a blanket fort over your head, point the phone at your face and go! Makeup-free, in the harsh blue light of the phone, wisdom in the instant of inspiration! Gives a whole new meaning to Melody Fletcher – LIVE! (really stopping now) :-P

Sofie June 4, 2015 at 19:49

Whoa, I never realized that some people didn’t like your videos. It seriously never occurred to me. The only thing I’ve been thinking about was that it seemed like you tried to make them the way “everyone else” did, and the newer ones didn’t feel as authentic. I guess I was right about that one :)

You’re so right about keeping it fun! It’s so easy to forget how much lighter life feels after laughing and giggling – I’m suddenly inspired again.

Anyway, Melody. It’s really exciting to be part of your community and seeing you stepping up your game continuously. And just about every time I have an idea and keep procrastinating, you make a blog post about it! I usually take them as a kick in the butt. FUCK YEAH COCREATION.

Tina June 4, 2015 at 19:53

You probably already know this, but YouTube has an on-board transcript service. To use it, just look for the “…More” under any video, and click “Transcript” to have it spit it out. It’s by no means perfect. (For example you may say “Where the law of attraction finally makes some freakin’ sense” but the transcript reported “Where the lot of attraction finally makes some free consent”…lol.) BUT if you are hankerin’ for a fast text view it’s usually pretty easy to deduce exactly what was said.

Also, I don’t know if you’ve run into fiverr.com since you’ve been in Spain, but it’s a new site that lets you pay $5 for pretty much anything. I’m sure if you posted a gig with “Earn $5 for transcribing 30 minutes of video” you’d get a lot of excited college kids raring to do it between finals. We recently started a site, and used Fiverr to get a bunch of user testing in on various devices and some focus testing. We paid about $20, instead of $200. You can use Amazon Mechanical Turk too, but it’s easier to select quality candidates on Fiverr due to their Yelp-ish review system.

You can delete this comment…just wanted to pass it on to you. :)

Just another option for folks who want a transcription but don’t want to wait.

Bee June 4, 2015 at 19:56

That’s awesome, Melody! I loved your video posts, even without the fancy pansy backgrounds and lighting etc… Wish I could help you with the audio typing bit, but I know you’ll find either the time yourself, or a great person for the job :)

You’re very right about keeping yourself happy and playing every now and then to not get too caught up in the rush of ‘life’ when things may not be going as ideally as they could be, i.e. work, relationships etc. I’ve recently left a job where I met and worked with my partner and accepted a new job that happens to be in a location I have to drive to. I’m not a comfortable driver at all, but have 2 weeks (until I have to begin working in the new location) to become a better driver… I have a lot of work to do, but I’ll get there, and in the mean time have to encourage my partner (whom is suddenly feeling rather insecure in the situation) that although we will now be seeing each other a lot less, things shouldn’t have to change between us… So for me, this blog post served as a nice little reminder to take a breather and not get too caught up in the mess of things.

Thank you for once again sharing your experience and wisdom with us, Melody! Happy shiny puppy hugs :)

Daphne June 4, 2015 at 20:00

Dear Melody,

I totally agree with your blog and your statements on this blog. You are so right to do what you want to do and what you feel like doing. It is so wonderful to follow you in your ways of “dealing” with LOA and in your progression at a day to day basis (in whatever form you want to represent it!). The only thing I can say in total and utter support is : Go Girl Go!! As long as you follow your heart – your inspiration – You’ll get where you want to go and it is so inspiring to me to do the same. Thank you :)

Teramis June 4, 2015 at 20:03

Thanks for this timely post, Melody. I’m grappling with a similar issue regarding video vs blogging. It’s helpful to vicariously share your process and see how you worked your way through this point of resistance and what conclusions you came to. Looking forward to future vids from you!

Melissa June 4, 2015 at 20:49

Melodyyyy! This totally rocks and I was even getting tears in my eyes as I was reading this. I so appreciate you sharing your process and vulnerability – I find reading your inside process so valuable and applicable when dealing with my own issues so thank you! I also think it’s awesome how you are going to follow what you want to do instead of listening to the masses RE: crappy lighting and all. Your content is so valuable and that is truly what matters. There will always be someone who will benefit from your message regardless of the delivery, so shine on my friend! You are such a force to be reckoned with and I am loving watching you grow.

Love Melissa

Susann June 4, 2015 at 21:01

Well, for heaven’s sake! Srsly, I was just thinking about this yesterday, kind of the “I wonder why Melody isn’t doing her videos anymore” sort of thing. I do better reading than I do listening, but that’s just me, so I often transcribe video content for myself. I enjoy doing this, because it makes me *really* listen to the material, word by word, so I get even more out of it than I would ordinarily.

And as for the backgrounds, lighting, video quality etc: who cares! You’re always so natural & relaxed & downright *funny*on your videos that they’re a joy to watch, regardless of where you are. You are *never* going to make everyone happy. You can turn yourself inside out trying to do so & there will *always* be someone trying to pee in your porridge about some damn thing. But you know this.

Melody, you always tell us: do what makes you happy and you’ll be in The Vortex. If you’re happy, your videos are going to be Pure Magic. And that makes us — & the Universe — happy. Sure, change is challenging & some have more problem with it than others. But we will either change along with you or drift away, which — as we all know — is exactly the way it should be. So rock on with your bad self!

Abueng June 4, 2015 at 21:08

Congratulations on levelling up, Melody! I always liked the video posts.

And thank you so much for the bit about considering the extreme option, not with the intention of actually doing it, but in order to shake something loose. I just had this experience two nights ago (perfect timing, as usual), and the extreme option that popped into my head seemed awful, but when I realized that that was definitely not what I wanted to do, it gave me new appreciation for what I do want. Even if I don’t quite know how to get there yet. :)

Anonymous June 4, 2015 at 21:18

It’s nice to have you back, Melody :) I really enjoyed your videos and look forward to more soon! To be honest, for me at least, energy is much more clearly and easily picked up through audio and video than text. I think my brain just messes with me or gets tired reading sometimes, even though I enjoy that too. Your videos were always a real treat!

Nay June 4, 2015 at 22:17

Melody,

Told you a long time ago you are a natural on film! Glad you have let go of the need to make it perfect according to whoever. Still loving all you do!
Nay

Susann June 4, 2015 at 22:25

To continue my thoughts from my earlier post: I forgot to mention [insert eyeroll here] how much I really, *really* enjoyed reading about your process — how you got from something not feeling quite “right” to the final epiphaniacal [this isn't a real word] understanding of what exactly wasn’t right, why it wasn’t right and what the right thing *is*. I often get hung up in the middle stages, knowing something’s not right but never able to quite fully work my way through to what is is exactly that needs to change. I think perhaps I quit too soon . . . reading about your journey through this particular puzzle helps a lot.

April June 4, 2015 at 23:26

I agree, I always tend to get caught up in the fact that I’m ‘vibrationally constipated’ as I like to call it, spend hours or days feeling that way, only to sooner or later get sick of feeling like crap, get off of the subject, and am finally met with a way to feel better. I would definitely like these moments to be shorter, really. Oh and Melody, I do hope you finish the article you were planning to write, whether you do so by video or whichever else. I have a lot of trouble letting myself just be and ‘play’, mainly due to the belief that we have to struggle to get what we want, which I’m still trying to shake. Speaking of, I liked the fact that you decided to drop making videos when it got too complicated and tedious, and that you’re going to start again because it feels fun and exciting once more. I like how you just don’t choose struggle, and that you know that you don’t have to.

Caroline June 4, 2015 at 22:26

Great post for many reasons! I’ll be very happy to see some more videos being posted (the production quality never even crossed my mind, and you’re right not to let it get in the way of your passion – the right people will always follow your work), I go through your YouTube archives quite often! Also the process/method you used to get around this blockage provides a beautiful template that I’m sure will benefit many people, it will definitely benefit me.

I also wanted to say that I finally got the chance to see you/meet you in London at the Mind, Body Spirit convention last month. Your workshop was awesome, I was buzzing afterwards!

Tina P. June 4, 2015 at 22:58

Hey Melody, I totally love your videos and what’s important is the message anyway. When people are focused on all other things, they’re missing the message. I know about a Croatian woman that shoots a video about LOA anytime with any hair, environment, no makeup on sometimes, because she just feels the urge of letting the message out, and she has a huge following.

For the transcript you can also find a volunteer from your audience who would be happy to do it for free as a service to the people AND he/she would benefit so much from the content itself when transcribing it, because it’s like selfstudy.

Love&hugs

Debbie June 4, 2015 at 23:29

im one of the video haters, so I just thought I would drop in and say hi. I’m not criticising in any way – you must of course do what mak s your heart sing. I hope that the transcripts will happen- if not I will just read your posts when you write them. Well done for figuring out your block- I need to work on mine too

Erin Ginkel June 4, 2015 at 23:51

Okay…I am bursting here with comments/suggestions….so, I am gonna list these to try and keep it succinct! LOL

1) Have I told you how much I adore you? I am one of your “newer” followers and I have to say your authenticity and ridiculously spot on wisdom are absolutely magnetic!
2) I adore your work so much, I nominated you for a LOA Leaders award a few months back. I truly think you are on the cutting edge of all of this and you are the REAL DEAL!
3) TRANSCRIBING! I am part of another Facebook community for Bentinho Massaro and his group actually has volunteers that transcribe his videos and retreats for him! And the best part….they are incredibly happy to do it! They have a group that does transcribing and editing the transcribed documents (grammar, flow, etc.). I am one of his newer transcribers and just a suggestion but some of your community may be incredibly willing to do it. I do it to help his work AND mostly from a very fun and “selfish” level because when I type something, I integrated it so much more into my knowledge bank. So, to shift perspectives…It may actually end up being a huge GIFT you could offer to your community. Or if you don’t have the volunteers pop up…maybe an easy trade for a session with you for every few videos done? I dunno…just throwing some ideas out there!
4) As far as you following your joy….well, it was wonderful to read your process. It is incredibly helpful and as we know, joy is the direct line to the inspiration so it all made perfect sense! Loved it!

Thank you for following your light and giving such awesome content here! Brilliant!

Cheryl June 5, 2015 at 00:00

I’ve been hoping for more videos. Yay.

Bryan June 5, 2015 at 00:47

Great Post Melody! I just discovered your blog a few months ago and just love your energy, authenticity and clarity that you project and you have such a wonderful perspective. I am excited to have some new video content from you as well. Rock on sista!

Rose June 5, 2015 at 00:54

Thank you, Melody!! I have yet to listen to your video on the ayahuasca as I remember keeping it for later because it was special! Then I had a lot going on so did not get to it which is actually ironical because that is also why I should’ve checked it out. haha. It’s very special to actually be able to see you but I love the way you write and that’s why if you stop writing, I will miss that!!! But I guess I will always adjust to whatever tool you use to express yourself!! Because I cannot miss out on what Melody has to say. :) In fact, I also hope you sing one day!! That would be so awesome. I love your voice. :)

Cordy June 5, 2015 at 01:09

Hi Melody,

Thanks for writing out your process of moving through this phase. I feel a lot of recognition of being “stuck” in that horse-chomping-at-bit way right now. I think what’s keeping me here is my current fear of going deep into that feeling – what if I just manifest more and more of it and I get stuck forever if I go further into it?!? (I know this is not real… but I’m still in the phase where it feels like it might be.)

kelli June 5, 2015 at 02:19

Hey Cordy
I think a lot of people have that fear but it is important to remember that dealing with negative emotion that is already there is really different from generating new negative emotion from focusing on things that make us feel badly, and then bringing more of it to us. Like you said, you know this isn’t true but that fear is still there. While it may feel a bit icky, you will likely experience a great sense of relief by doing this and that is a powerful way to get energy flowing in the right direction.
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Hot Pink June 5, 2015 at 01:09

LOA – its a funny ole thing. One of my “objections” to the video was that I did not have a big data plan – the vid would buffer and not play. Now, the telco has “given” me a bigger data plan – basically to stop all its customers defecting – and so now I CAN watch you vids – so see – things have an amazing synchronicity to them!!!!.
I HAD been wondering what you were doing – off conquering the world with Hay House OR enjoying a spa holiday – either way – I thought good for you!!!.

Hot Pink June 5, 2015 at 01:15

Also – I was never a critic of the quality of the vids – I am gobsmacked at how much effort you went to as a way to improve your skills – inspiring – my issue was just that I could not play the vid due to the stingy crappy almost-worst-in-the-world internet in Australia.
Go figure, folks – the country that freakin INVENTED wi-fi – rates about 176th in the world for internet.

kelli June 5, 2015 at 02:15

Hey Melody
This post was perfect for me. I really agree with what you said about looking at that extreme perspective to mine some helpful insights. You are right it can be scary to follow that nudge when the feedback may not match what you are thinking and being very attached to things being a certain way. I have started doing podcasts on my blog and I am loving it and they and video are easier to write than blog posts I think…there are some moments when I feel like…hmm…I might just like doing these. But right now I still enjoy my written posts.

When we have that clarity around our intentions, those technical aspects, like good lighting or something looking ‘super-professional’ really don’t matter as much because our energy is aligned nicely. Sounds like you reached that point and I personally don’t give a crap and will happily drink in your insights! There are a crapload of roosters on the property here now and they are heard in the background and it just is what it is…I am not so much into editing anything right now and I am getting great feedback.

This post is a perfect example of how we are always growing, evolving and resistance will probably pop up…I think that is part of the process people struggle with because there is an expectation they will achieve some perfect vibration or whatever and never have to deal with it again, but alas, not usually how it goes!

I am excited to see what unfolds here.
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Samuel June 5, 2015 at 02:18

Hey Melody,

Just wanted to point out that most of your value (to relatively new readers anyway) comes from immersion into your archives and published coaching calls. So there’s no need to worry about pleasing anyone or anything.

Faith June 5, 2015 at 02:29

Yayyyyy

Sophie D June 5, 2015 at 05:05

Super excited, Mel!! I have always loved your videos more than reading the blogs. (I just love watching videos period.) So glad you’re back on track. I love your “don’t give a shit” way of looking at your new interests. Way to go! #BullshitFairyOnFire!

Adriana Guidi June 5, 2015 at 06:11

Yay Good for you Melody! You should shoot the videos in whatever way brings you joy and makes you feel the most comfortable.Who cares if there’s a fireplace/no fireplace behind you?..lol We just want to see you and hear your inspiring words!I’ll watch! heehee :)
Hugs!

Caitlin June 5, 2015 at 06:30

Melody, I can do the transcription. :) how exciting for you!

Toby June 5, 2015 at 07:02

I didn’t miss you at all- because I watching the Hay house videos and podcasts you sent the link to in the last post. (Thank you, that was brilliant) some of the interviews mentioned the ‘tribes’ that different coaches attracted. After listening to your interview I was struck by the fact that a) you are as great as I have always thought and b) I am part of your tribe. Then I went on YouTube to look at some of your videos because I missed you and also because I like the energy you put out when I listen or see you- a bit vampirish, but I was going through my own stuff and needed you! I thank that old universe for you Melody- and I look forward to seeing or even hearing from you whenever, whatever- this member of your tribe will be here. And thanks for all your help so far. Xx

Ryan Biddulph June 5, 2015 at 10:50

Melody,

I really wished you’d have done this as a video post……j/k LOL! Love it!

Because I go thru similar stuff regularly. I love publishing eBooks. So I publish 1 a week on Amazon. Which rocks. But I continually release and let go other online activities to make room for the energy required to write 8 to 10 K words weekly for my eBooks. A bit uncomfy at times. I am also doing a podcast – ramping that up – which lets the HAM in me come out and a 1080 HD video from the villa here in Bali. Fun fun fun, but goodness letting go can be a bit neat at times…..wonderful post Melody. Thanks for the heart felt share :)

Ryan
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Lawmom June 5, 2015 at 11:59

Yay! I just found you last September (or maybe you found me, I’m still figuring out how this whole universe thing works). :) Following you first thing in the morning gets my head happy for the day. The problem is, I could spend hours reading archived blogs and well, “aint nobody got time for that”! Imagine my delight when I figured out you had vlogs! I could listen/watch while I put on my make-up and curled my hair in the morning!! So I say – bring on the vlogs! Or not. Whatever makes your shiny happy puppy energy shine benefits all of us!

yog maya singh June 5, 2015 at 12:06

Hi Melody,

I was restless the whole of last week and this week too up until now, and was wondering why you hadn’t written a blog post for such a long time.To be honest, I was even a little worried for you. But it’s great to know you are fine. Also, thanks for reminding me (all of us rather) to have fun always. Thank you so much Melody, there’s no one else who writes better than you.

Laurel June 5, 2015 at 16:31

Melody,

I think this is perfect. To me, this feels like a boundary. You’ve decided how you want to run your life and business. As your client, I am really happy you are setting this intention and going with it. It is a wonderful example, and goal for me too.

Once I start my blog, maybe I’ll do some videos too! In fact, I bet I will after reading this post.

You rock as always.

Carrie June 5, 2015 at 16:39

Hey Melody! I love every bit of info that you put out there. Blog, vlog, whatever! If people are complaining about the background, then you probably won’t be able to help those people much anyway. Just be real, be you. That’s what we all were drawn to in the first place :)

Summer June 5, 2015 at 16:54

LOL! Yeah I know I am one of the ones you told to play more and I have been. Who knew playing was so much fun!! :)

I know I also was one of the ones who preferred written blog posts, but honestly, I am going through A LOT of changes lately……A LOT!!! And I’m so freakin’ excited I might just explode at some point!!

But with everything going on lately I’ve been super busy and I haven’t been able to really read blog posts like I used to. So videos would be awesome. I can listen to them on my phone while I’m working or driving or where ever. So this transition to video would come at the perfect time for me – as usual! ;)

You are so awesome Melody! I just love you!!! :D
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Ophelia June 5, 2015 at 17:56

Melody, I follow the blog regularly, and I like the video idea. I often look for inspiring videos I can listen to first while I’m making breakfast or getting ready or hopping on the elliptical, etc. It really boosts my day getting my thoughts in the right place when I don’t have time to read. I’ll be looking forward to them!

Lisa J June 5, 2015 at 20:43

Cool! I’d be happy to help with some transcribing, should you decide to do that! :)

Maggie Shayne June 5, 2015 at 22:38

I’m supposed to be diving into the final polishing phase of a book which is the most intense part for me. It’s due with the editor by the 15th. It’ll take all of that time. Probably. But today I wanted to play. I’ve been working on a little sacred space in the back yard, and that’s calling to me. I’ve been outside a lot today, but I keep coming in to get to work, then getting distracted by other must do things, and then longing to go back outside. FINALLY I dragged myself to my upstairs office to begin reading my own notes on the iPad and incorporating them into the manuscript on the desktop. But the iPad was dead. So I figured while it charged I’d have time to read your latest post. And BAM! There it was. The Universe’s clear message to me, that I should GO OUT AND PLAY. (And later on, I’m going to mull on the notion of quitting, which might get me motivated again, not that I will ever actually quit.) So thanks again for reading my mind and posting just what I needed to hear. And YOU GO, GIRL on doing your blog YOUR way. :) Rock on, sister friend.
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Laetitia June 5, 2015 at 23:14

Go ahead and do what YOU want. I never had a problem with your videos. I don’t care about lighting, and background and all sorts of crap like that, you’re not a videographer, for goodness sake. As long as I can hear you and see you clearly, who gives a crap.

Thank you for all your content, and stop paying so much attention to the whiners.

Moonsparkle June 6, 2015 at 00:48

Hi Melody, I prefer written blog posts because I absorb information better through writing but that doesn’t mean I’d never watch a video. It’s good to have a change sometimes. :) I’ve done two programs called Connection, Possibility and You with Adrienne Martin and she posted short videos every day. I enjoyed watching them. I will say I prefer short videos (because I find my attention wanders) but that’s just my preference. Some people will like them short and others will like them long. I like long blog posts, while others will prefer them short. I think you should do whatever makes you happy. :)

Also I can understand how you felt pressured after having your videos critiqued. I don’t think it matters how professional they look personally. The ones I watched that Adrienne Martin did were just shot wherever she was and they were fine. :)
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Ritah June 6, 2015 at 01:46

Yeeeahhh!! Finally! I have been wishing and wanting and waiting for this!
Thank you Melody! Great initiative and great decision!
For me it is hard to concentrate on or taking the time to read the blogposts.. I am too restless and always on the run. With the video, i can listen to you anytime and anywhete on my Iphone and be more focused on the message. And I dont even have to keep my eyes on the iphone. So convient! So perfect! Thanks Melody!
Wishes come true!

Terry June 6, 2015 at 04:09

Hi Melody,
You definitely surprised me, I did not know what was going on,
but I will tell that your awesomeness & amazing idea that we need
to play again to come to our wits & encourage ourselves to
kick-start our emotions in the directions we to flow.
Your can not imagine how muchly you have changed other times.
I dearly love Cordy`s & Kelli`s thoughts !
Melody, so amazing & I am looking forwards to reading your new book !

Natalie June 7, 2015 at 04:32

I’m excited for your videos Melody! I was instantly intrigued when you mentioned you’re going to offer your perspective on current world events. This sounds like it will be very insightful and will give us an opportunity to study the workings of the LOA from a Macro level.

Ryan June 7, 2015 at 05:01

Melody, I LOVE your recommendation (and example) about the thought experiment of taking something to the extreme (like quitting your entire blog) as a way to allow new information to occur to you. Coincidentally, I gave a speech about this the other day! http://ryancwalsh.com/video/?v=c_LjuPkySNM&speed=1.5
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Sa June 7, 2015 at 09:03

Hi Melody! As a a sort of ‘newbie’ here on your blog (I’ve been around a few months now), I’m very much looking forward to seeing you talk about this stuff on video! And the more low tech the better in my opinion. I like to see people just being real – plus then I don’t have to feel intimidated about making my own videos. So – have at it! Can’t wait!
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Jessica June 8, 2015 at 14:41

Melody, I love how your going to be creating your content….having fun and following your heart. I know you already write from inspiration but the way you expressed the changes that are happening for you, letting go of another layer and leveling up….following you heart no matter how high the stakes….was very helpful to hear! This post was so inspiring to me and gave me more clarity about my own process.
Thank you so much for sharing.

Ian Listman June 8, 2015 at 16:02

Change is not a bad thing!
Everything is forever changing and in motion.
Just keep on creating in ways that you love doing it, whether that is video or writing, it doesn’t matter. At the end, its really that inner passion that translates into positive outcome!
Keep doing what you do best!

Sugar Baby June 9, 2015 at 05:54

I think it’s wonderful that you’re listening to you and doing what you want. I want you to be a very happy shiny puppy because without you, I’d be completely and utterly lost. You’re my saviour Melody. I’m sure there are many lurkers on your site that would love to tell you the same thing.

If you’re happy then we are. If video’s take less time to do, that could mean more love peace and happy shiny messages from you.

I was once that reader who didn’t like the vlogs and whined that I wanted a transcript because I felt I learned better that way. Well guess what, I’ve been experiencing a great deal of fear lately but listening to your calming and happy voice on your youtube videos have played a big part in reducing my anxiety. I love your voice, I love your chimney, I love your humour. They have all saved me from a very dark place. I say make more even from under your bed with a torch and we will be happy. We love you!

On Friday I wrote a letter to the universe and I asked for a sign that tomorrow will be OK and that the outcome will be a positive manifestation and that we will have peace, safety and harmony Today I was driving to work and I saw this on the number plate of a car infront of me W111N. I’m following the signs. I love you for that. You’ve given me the guidance I truly wanted growing up without a mother figure.

I welcome you in my home in Sydney if you ever want to visit Australia. Meeting you would be like meeting Oprah.

Just Call Me A. June 9, 2015 at 13:50

I love your videos, especially the old ones. I found nothing wrong with them at all. Instead, they were organic, natural and flowed nicely and there were no distractions. I am all for more vids and thank you for sharing these processes. I knew you were up to something, but thought you would write about the Hay House summit.

Terry June 10, 2015 at 03:57

Hi,

All said & done. Just need your imaginations !

Terry June 10, 2015 at 06:48

See China right in front of you !
The gold is so… so… so…
No What I am meaning to say is all the people you came
across in your up-coming that totally blew you away only
wanted you to listen so to guide you to greatness…

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