Today, I have another extra special treat for you. Awesome reader Nay, whom you may know as a super frequent contributor to the comment section, sent me a beautiful email last week. In it, she described how she shifted her beliefs and affected a dramatic physical healing. I thought the email was an incredible example of “doing it right”, and she graciously agreed to let me publish it here on the blog, so that all of you could benefit from her wisdom. The subheadings are mine (for ease of reading), but the rest is all Nay. Enjoy!!
I have to give you an update on something that I did, and find very cool, and maybe a little exciting. Ok, more than a little exciting, since I find myself wanting to squee with happiness off and on when I think about it. I think I took care of a health issue that I have had for a long time.
A bit of history
I got whooping cough when I was about eight years old. It seemed to affect my lungs pretty bad and for a while, looked like I had asthma. Asthma and emphysema run in my family, and I so didn’t want to go that route. But as I got older, I outgrew most of it. Still had problems, especially around animals, but they were very few and far between. Well about ten years ago, the problems started coming back. Where we were living had an extremely high pollen count one season, and I also got a very bad cold. I ended up on inhalers and meds because I was having such a hard time breathing and was coughing so much.
What made it worse is my job was teaching, and talking seemed to make me cough. Hard to teach when you are constantly coughing when you talk! Well it cleared up after a few months and lots of meds, but it kept returning at about the same time every year. I would get a cold, get past the cold, but hold on to the coughing and wheezing, even though my lungs were clear when the doctors listened to me. I couldn’t seem to shake it without an inhaler and meds, and even then, it lasted for about three to four months.
This year was no exception. I got a good cold, and thought I had come through clean, but not happening. So for the last two months, wheezing and coughing, with nothing coming up, and yes, it was worse when I tried to talk. My husband did suggest, with a very innocent face, that maybe I should just stop talking.
Since not talking isn’t an option , I once again started using the inhaler and meds. But this time I started thinking about it from an LOA stand point. In my mind, sickness is something that is caused by either a blockage in energy, or a belief. So I was thinking about this pretty regularly while trying to hack up a lung. I decided to analyze what feelings I was having during this issue. Put simply, I was annoyed, overwhelmed, out of breath, tired and frustrated. Talking was no fun (the horror!), and I really wondered if I would just keep having this issue, and if it would get worse as time went on.
A pattern emerges
Now this is when it gets interesting! So many things clicked in my head, it amazes me!!! When this started ten years ago, I was teaching. No big deal, until you add how I was feeling about it at the time. I can be a shy person, but have overcome most of that as I’ve grown older. So trust me when I say, I can talk with the best of them. But put me on a stage or in a formal situation, and I was not, and still am not, comfortable speaking in front of people.
Well that’s rough enough, but at that time, I had just gotten to my new job and did not know the material I had to teach. I had about three months before I had to be on podium, and that time included going to the mandatory training required to be a teacher, and THEN learning the material I had to teach. Needless to say, I did not feel prepared to teach, at all. So there I was, having to teach/speak in front of people, covering material I did not know, and feeling pretty much overwhelmed, to say the least.
Added to that, the last three places I had worked, I was in almost the same position. I was working on stuff I didn’t know anything about, so had to learn while I burned. But at least I didn’t have to teach at those jobs! My lack of knowledge was all on me, and I could ask someone else to help me out. But I was ALWAYS feeling like I was behind, or not good enough or knowledgeable enough to really do my job well. And just when I felt I was getting a handle on one job, I would be sent somewhere else, and have to start over again. But the teaching took it to a new level.
Don’t get me wrong. I always accomplished what was needed, and always got good evaluations, because I worked my butt off! I hated being behind and not knowing what I was doing, but that was where I always ended up. And this pattern continued at each job that I was sent to, even after the teaching. It was always something new, always stuff I had never worked with before, and I always had to learn it while working on it. And as I advanced, I had to teach and train more often, and speak in public more often. So it just continued to escalate for me. It became annoying, tiring, and it seemed like it would never end. Hmmm? Can you see LOA here? I just kept manifesting the situations I didn’t want!
Connecting the dots
So, what does this have to do with my health problems? Well, let me go over how the health issues made me feel again. Annoyed, overwhelmed, tired and frustrated, talking is no fun, I’m afraid I will just keep having this issue and it will get worse as time goes on. Almost exactly the same feelings that were happening in my career from the start!!! And then it clicked. The health problem started just after I started teaching, and my breathing issues were always worse when I was trying to talk! WHOA!
But the epiphanies continued. I realized it wouldn’t have mattered how well I knew the subjects. In reality, the job I did was always changing, so I would have always been trying to keep up anyway. Yes, if I had stayed with the same type of equipment and my job had expanded with just that equipment, things might have been easier. But I wanted to provide the best when I worked, spoke, or taught, which meant in my mind, I had to know it all. Can you say perfectionist?
Beginning the shifting process
So I started working on this belief. I asked myself if I could ever know it all. That simple question provided the truth. I would never know it ALL. On anything! There is always going to be more. I will never be truly done, because life is ever expanding, whether dealing with a job, or with people, or with knowledge. And then I realized, I truly didn’t want to be done. Being ‘done’ would get boring very fast. I want new experiences, and new information on old subjects. I want to learn more, because that means I am expanding and growing, and I really enjoy learning.
And more importantly, I realized that I can still speak intelligently, even without complete and all encompassing knowledge. In fact, I can speak very well with just a little knowledge, because I now have so much experience doing just that! :D
Now finally, to the point! I did this analyzing and had these epiphanies over a two day period. On the third day, I woke up at four in the morning, coughing like crazy. And it wasn’t the dry wheezy cough I was used to. I was coughing stuff up! And I just kept coughing! I thought I would end up going to the hospital it got so bad. But it ‘only’ lasted about four hours. My chest, back, throat, stomach and lungs hurt, but the coughing slowed way down. By the next day, I was coughing sporadically at most. By the third day, I was only coughing every once in a while, and rarely when I talked, and no wheezing. And what’s even more amazing, the coughing and wheezing had been getting worse just before these epiphanies. It was bad enough my husband was talking hospital emergency room. So that change in three days was huge, not just part of a steady progression of improvement! Now I am almost clear and it’s only been about two weeks. Normally, I would still be in the middle of my episode, and have about a month to go before I started seeing any changes. And I would be using an inhaler constantly and be on meds too, which I’m not.
I have let go of the need for perfect knowledge, because it’s not necessary or possible. I think that realization there is what did it. It was like a huge weight lifted off my chest. I even feel like I can allow myself to talk about something, and not feel like an idiot because I don’t know everything about it.
I’ve also realized I was even feeling pressure just talking to my family, about anything and everything! I wanted to make sure I had all my facts straight and I was making sense, and was providing good information, even with my husband. No pressure there . When I would talk on the phone, I would pace all over the house, and feel almost out of breath during and after I was done talking. I always wondered why? This last week, I was talking on the phone with my sister, and suddenly realized I was just sitting in the chair talking. No pacing or feeling like I didn’t have enough air. I almost cried!
So I did it! I figured out what was causing this health issue! My wheezy coughing days are over! And even better, I worked through something that I didn’t even know was causing me stress with my family.
Have I mentioned that I love what I have learned through this blog and LOA teachings?!!!
Thank you Nay from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to share this wonderful example with the rest of the community. What a perfect example of
- Getting the point where you’re not willing to “take it anymore”
- Making the decision to do something different (LOA work)
- Figuring out how the coughing (or whatever unwanted event) was feeling emotionally
- Finding the thoughts related to those emotions and
- Deliberately changing those thoughts by questioning if they are still true today.
Ladies and Gentlemen, there you have it. I’m sure Nay would love to hear what you think and have to say in the comments. So would I, naturally.